In his search of love the the blogger struggles between the decision of an arranged marriage or to persue true love.
The views expressed herein are the personal views of the author and are not a reflection of the views of any other person. Any resemblance to a real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.
Friday, April 8, 2011
The First Cut Is the Deepest
The First cut is always the deepest. This weekend I will try to forget the hurt of that cut cause I will be meeting one of the girls that my family has arranged my marriage with. We have been talking for a while but but meeting for the very first time.
This meeting is causing me to have Butterflies in your stomach. I shared my fears with my friends and a friend shared with me a few lyrics from a song it went some thing like this Butterflies in your stomach You know, it could be worse Yeah,You could have a caterpillar up your nose. The song goes on to say how one can overcome the butterflies in your stomach.
I guess its just normal to have a butterfly in your stomach, we just have to channel the butterflies to spread their wings and fly away. I guess from my perspective the butterflies are mainly because of the fear of rejection. The fear of rejection normally causes me to do crazy things, I hope that changes.
The one crazy thing I have realized is when some one gets close to me I tend to run away. Am i going to run away from the situation cause I am scared of getting hurt? I am hoping this time I take the risk and face my fears and don't run away cause I think there is a chance that some one will say no in the future. Why wont I realize that they are getting close to me to compliment me not hurt me.